LIFE AS A STATISTIC

if it hurts,
kiss it better
you wear skirts,
i write nice letters
never said nothing with flowers
though we always talked for hours
and it seems to get much colder
when you cry on your own shoulder
and we know the show
must go on
guess i know
i guess i'll throw on

some jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows
jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder
i feel much better
when i cry on my own shoulder
i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a change of heart, a change of clothes
and when i'm home, i think i'll go eat cereal and stare out the window

i'll make the calls
you cover your ears
niagra falls
still flows on new year's
i will save
your plunging neck-line
kiss your face
you try to deck mine
if i behave it's going to cost him
stop the rave in downtown boston
and we know the show
must go on
guess i know
i guess i'll throw on

some jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows
jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder
i feel much better
when i cry on my own shoulder
i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this lonely mood
and my ego, the status quo, provides me with a decent attitude
and i'll go to undergo a change of heart, a change of clothes
and when i'm home, i'll think i'll go eat cereal and stare out the window

cause you confused me more than anyone
an adjustment has begun
to let me feel the desperate need to leave what we undid undone
and maybe you could sympathize
with the bags under my eyes
and we'll see the signs are saying that we have used up all our (tries)
try to be a better person
to be a better friend
to be a better son

he tries to be a better someone
that understands the difference
and that he can't show all the people all the things that really mean as much as he could (feel)
feels like i don't remember
ever being this tired (before)
before now my eyes were closed to all of the beauty in this world

jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows
jefferson airplane
i'm trapped and i am enclosed
but i won't complain
i'll open all the windows

cause when it's colder
i feel much better
when i cry on my own shoulder
i'll just throw on a sweater and go

and i'll go to undergo a surgery to purge me of this lonely mood
and my ego, the status quo, provides me with a decent attitude
and i'll go to undergo a change of heart, a change of clothes
and i'll go, oh yes, i'll go and hope the new me shows so everybody knows
that i've found myself able to fly away without magic feathers or jefferson aero planes
i've got with me all that i need

I'm reading in church tomorrow.  in front of a lot of people.  hmmm.





in other news, i have a

for you.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

updates

*working.  a lot.  come to the beach to visit me.  that is not a request.
*i got my braces off
*i got my act scores back :)
*i bought a whole bunch of stuff for band camp.  sweet stuff.
*white elephant sale @st marys = fantastic
*teaching swimming lessons for the next two weeks. hmmm....
*im a loser and havent hung out with anyone in forever.



yup thats about it.

hey lovelies


im blowing you all kisses goodbye

im gone from early tomorrow to late saturday for girls state.


i will miss you all very much.


especially everyone who came to visit me at the beach.  which would be no one.  ha.


see you in a week.

do not underestimate bored, evil little ten year olds who dont have any parent supervision.


i get to the beach yesterday morning, and the giant lifeguard stand was DUG UP and MOVED TO THE MIDDLE OF THE BEACH!

oh.
my.
gosh.


i had to spend the next hour moving it back.  so this morning it had so better be in the right place.  or i am going to rage.  and you dont want to see that.


other then that.... its the first monday of summer.  mmmmm, yummy.  and i am working 10-6 at the beach again.......... so if you are bored........ i probably will be too........

hopeless romantic show was sweet last night.

i had so much fun.

now i am taking my new baby (my kayak!!!) out for a ride.  i am so excited.  yay.

this is turning out to be a good weekend.

PROM IS NOW AT GRAND HAVEN GOLF CLUB DUE TO CONTRACT ISSUES AT TRILLIUM!!!!

TELL EVERYONE YOU KNOW THAT IS GOING!!!